Hundreds of little babbling voices in my head.
All wrestling for my span of attention.
Each one bringing his argument forth.
To convince me of why his idea aught to become alpha thought.
Its a melting pot rift with would be thoughts.
Inner demons stir up the concoction.
Not satisfied still, they fill it up some more.
Till the contents spill over. In doing so, impeding my speed of talk.
Faster and faster I speak, becoming pressed for thought.
That’s why my dialect comes across as hasty and incoherent.
For my thought pot simmers with a million ingredients.
So I’m trying to serve you a million opinions.
As I think and deliver them through a single medium.
In the end everything which I say makes no sense.
Just random sentences devoid of a specific point of reference.
Although I know what I’m getting at,
I can never seem to verbally at it, if that makes sense.
As a result, Frustration bubbles on the inside.
An allergic reaction from failing to be concise.
The harder I try,
The more frustrating it becomes, as a slave to a vexed mind.
Nobody understands me!!
Frustration itself and frustration of self boils over into manic anger,
From passive aggression.
Mutating into a grenade-esque temper.
Just a slip of a finger away from mass disaster.
Weather intentional or accidental.
Once the manic mind seizes control,
The mind slips on itself and in doing so- Looses its firm footing in reality.
Jumping head first into the murky bottle of impulsivity.
Or is that the bottle of liquor…
Like a werewolf transforming before the silent stillness of night.
Wailing and gnashing his teeth before the glare of the moonlight.
Drunken savage and violent.
Liquor bottle in tow as he hunts in the darkness, filled with the rage that bubbles on the inside